For those who know me, I have gained and lost weight more times than I want to count. Each time I have lost weight, the going got tough, and I bailed. Call it weakness, call it a character flaw, call it a lack of willpower--but I refuse to call it failure, like I have in the past.
I have heard it said that you only fail when you fail to get back up and try again. Nothing worthwhile ever is easy...especially when it involves change and diving deep into yourself to find out why you keep making poor choices when you KNOW they will only be bad for you. Weight loss for me is more than eating right and exercise. It is about changing myself from the inside out, and admitting that most of the time I do NOT have all of the answers, nor should I expect that of myself.
This time is different. It feels different in me. It is not like an excitement, or a "Yeah me! I can do this." kind of feeling. It is more like a steady peace, like my mind is more focused and I am hopeful. To be honest, I hate diet and excercise. If those words were banned from my vocabulary, I would be perfectly happy (Oh, wait...that mindset is what got me at this point on the scale).
I think life is about choices. Although I have made plenty of great choices in how I live my life, I am defined by many by me being overweight. Don't get me wrong, I do not define me by that alone, but society does. This is not begging for a pity party, but rather one more motivating factor in wanting to lose weight and get healthy. I am also doing this for me and for my family. I want to be able to do what I want to do without limitations or feeling self conscious about how my weight affects how I look or how I look doing something. Being obese holds me back, and I want to let myself loose.
One of my favorite songs that I work out to is Unstoppable by Kerri Roberts. There is a line in the song that says, "Wake up and hold your head up high. Challenge your future to a fight." I think that is my mantra today. To me it says to be proud of the journey and every winning choice that puts me closer to where I want to be.
Now, for today's goals:
1. Exercise on the elliptical for 25 minutes (done first thing this morning).
2. Eat a healthy breakfast--since I have a tendancy to skip
3. Plan and log all meals and snacks today.
4. Walk a mile after supper tonight.
The purpose of this blog is for me to get out what I want to do, to get me to set and share my goals, and to hold me accountable for what I am doing. Feel free to comment, give advise, give me ideas, and share what you know or what you have learned. I want to get ideas and learn.
If you are on this journey too, I want to be able to get to know you and to share in our daily ups and downs on this journey.