Starting Over...AGAIN

For those who know me, I have gained and lost weight more times than I want to count.  Each time I have lost weight, the going got tough, and I bailed.  Call it weakness, call it a character flaw, call it a lack of willpower--but I refuse to call it failure, like I have in the past.

 

I have heard it said that you only fail when you fail to get back up and try again.  Nothing worthwhile ever is easy...especially when it involves change and diving deep into yourself to find out why you keep making poor choices when you KNOW they will only be bad for you.  Weight loss for me is more than eating right and exercise.  It is about changing myself from the inside out, and admitting that most of the time I do NOT have all of the answers,  nor should I expect that of myself.  

 

This time is different.  It feels different in me.  It is not like an excitement, or a "Yeah me! I can do this." kind of feeling.  It is more like a steady peace, like my mind is more focused and I am hopeful. To be honest, I hate diet and excercise.  If those words were banned from my vocabulary, I would be perfectly happy (Oh, wait...that mindset is what got me at this point on the scale). 

 

I think life is about choices.  Although I have made plenty of great choices in how I live my life, I am defined by many by me being overweight.  Don't get me wrong, I do not define me by that alone, but society does.  This is not begging for a pity party, but rather one more motivating factor in wanting to lose weight and get healthy.  I am also doing this for me and for my family.  I want to be able to do what I want to do without limitations or feeling self conscious about how my weight affects how I look or how I look doing something.  Being obese holds me back, and I want to let myself loose.

 

One of my favorite songs that I work out to is Unstoppable by Kerri Roberts.  There is a line in the song that says, "Wake up and hold your head up high.  Challenge your future to a fight."  I think that is my mantra today. To me it says to be proud of the journey and every winning choice that puts me closer to where I want to be.  

 

Now, for today's goals:

 

1.  Exercise on the elliptical for 25 minutes (done first thing this morning).

2. Eat a healthy breakfast--since I have a tendancy to skip

3.  Plan and log all meals and snacks today. 

4.  Walk a mile after supper tonight.

 

The purpose of this blog is for me to get out what I want to do, to get me to set and share my goals, and to hold me accountable for what I am doing.  Feel free to comment, give advise, give me ideas, and share what you know or what you have learned.  I want to get ideas and learn.  

 

If you are on this journey too, I want to be able to get to know you and to share in our daily ups and downs on this journey.

 

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Comments (0)

  1. SEC

    “if at first you don’t fricasse, fry fry a hen”

    June 25, 2013
    1. Hope_Springs_Eternal

      LOL! I have missed you SEC! Finally have time to get back here and hopefully catch up with everyone.

      June 25, 2013
      1. SEC

        I’ve missed you too!

        June 25, 2013
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  3. godsby_girl

    I feel like I struggle with the wrong mentality about weight loss as well. This blog has inspired me!

    June 25, 2013
    1. Hope_Springs_Eternal

      Thanks. I wish I had this all figured out. My plan is to have this blog to be a blow by blow account as to what is going on in the journey—the good, bad and ugly. Maybe by being honest and real, hopefully this will be a successsful journey. I think that the key to success is mental, and that is tougher to do than just eating food off a certain list and checking off exercise everyday.

      June 25, 2013
      1. godsby_girl

        I couldn’t agree more. I keep trying all of these different things, I try to go by this i dont “eating rule.” And I got a gym membership but I never go with fear of looking like an idiot while I workout because I have no idea how to use the machines and stuff.

        June 25, 2013
        1. Hope_Springs_Eternal

          Been there, done that, and I have the t-shirt to prove it! I have done the gym and weight watchers—just to quit and regain the weight. This time, I am keeping it simple. I have an elliptical and a bike at home to work out on. There is a walking track at the park, and I am going to do lunges, dips, and push ups for my strength training. I track my food and exercise on the my fitness pal app. I am just trying to keep it simple—and just be assured I do not have any of the answers and this is a true learning process for me.

          June 25, 2013
          1. godsby_girl

            Well you have definitely inspired me! I am definitely supporting your journey and wish you the best of success! I am going to start my own journey as well to just feel healthier mentally and physically.

            June 25, 2013
            1. Hope_Springs_Eternal

              Glad you sent me a friend request. Let’s do this together. We can keep each other accountable and give each other ideas and encouragement. BTW, I will be praying for you as you start your own journey.

              June 25, 2013
            2. godsby_girl

              That sounds great! I am praying for your Journey as well. I think that is a great idea! I definitely need accountability and encouragement and I’d love to do the same for you!

              June 25, 2013
            3. Hope_Springs_Eternal

              Well, it sounds like we will be in this together then! Hope you have a great day!

              June 25, 2013
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  6. Hope_Springs_Eternal

    Thanks. I did not see that.

    December 20, 2013